- Hanni, today I would like to talk to you about needs, Uranus said. - And when I talk about needs, I know that your culture has in it also the negative form of the concept "need". This negative form is functioning inside many people, and is trying to prevent the satisfaction of the real need. The culture-bound form is always very restricted and conventional: "good need", "bad need". It tries, with the help of conventionality, to chain the emergence of the need when it is preventing balance and is like a chain inside man.

Need is an energy which maintains your existence and which comes from inside of you and requires its satisfaction, when it secures your continuity. Need is also an energy which tries to realize and create balance from inside of you, for existence is always balance. A need is always aiming at its own original existence or, as far as man is concerned, to himself with which I mean the whole, or the balance between spirit and body. The need inside you tries to maintain this state and tell you about things you need in order to maintain this state. A need is all those thoughts, emotions and attitudes which you find inside yourself. In everything, it is all about a need, and the most important thing is what man needs at that very moment. If he is hungry, he needs nutrition. Satisfying that need maintains life, and at that moment, only nutrition has a meaning for a hungry person. In the same way you see that need is a maintaining force in nature as well. Every human being has needs, wants and wishes, and one has to be able to fulfill them to a certain extent so that one can be at peace with oneself. Every human being has certain basic needs, and the life he has lived dictates the intensity of these needs. I also have my own needs both there and on this side, and without their fulfillment, I would not be able to function. The foundation of everything is that your are aware of the needs, and that you also understand which contradictions will appear when fulfilling them in any given situation. The most important thing is to see the reality; then one can choose the forms and situations that enable the satisfaction of the basic needs.

If man is not aware of his own needs and cannot understand their influence on his own personality, they remain hidden from him. However, the needs exist and are alive and are often trying to get a hidden satisfaction in a disguised form. This is very common in your world but because people are not aware of their own needs, they cannot see the reality and their own personality either. Needs are the basis and foundation of everything, and unless man can clarify them to himself, he cannot stay on his own course. Each of us has experienced so many different things during various lives, and we can never by ourselves realize holistically that whole which is seeking balance inside us. So we are never capable of treating these matters with our reason. All that remains is the state and the need which we can freely realize as long as we want. We cannot see inside us and we cannot realize with our reason. If we want to get in balance, this inner need tries to balance different layers and states or produce need-satisfaction, and it is action which is completely in accordance with man's own will and need. So there is nothing whatsoever wrong with it.

Now, I really would like to hear what your needs are at the moment. Go into yourself here and now and face this whole which I told you. Face all different parts in you, and ask information from them, what their needs are here and now. Ask yourself what your topmost needs are which you need to satisfy. You are fully capable of that, for in this space, there is an immense amount of light and love. I wish you could do like this: Close your eyes and take protection energy by the hand and set out on the journey. Start repeating in your mind as shortly and tersely as possible the question: "What is the most important need of mine?" and let the respiration flow freely all the time. Then you let the question just dissolve and let everything move freely in your mind, concentrating on your breathing. Very often the answers will not come clear and logical as expected in your world, but they rise as various thoughts, words, images, symbols, any kind of sensations. When you think about them, they unfold and unite, and you see the core of them. When you are ready, let the protection energy lift you back up to this space, Uranus ended his speed.

Protection energy, what on earth is protection energy? I wondered feverishly, but closed my eyes bravely. And suddenly I saw a huge hand which was stretching out to me in darkness. I grasped the hand and started repeating the sentence "What is the most important need of mine?" at the same time breathing evenly. I repeated the sentence for  a while and eventually let go of it.

It was completely dark and quiet in my mind and I was certain that I would not get any answer. But suddenly a clear sentence arose in my mind, as if a quiet voice had said it: "I want to be myself". I opened my eyes in astonishment: Of course, it had always been like this! Somewhere deep in the twilight of my being I had always only wanted to be myself, unashamedly and uncontrollably.

- Keep your eyes open, and you are back in this space again. Now, I would like to hear about your experiences, Uranus said.

- What an extraordinary journey! I cried out. - I really saw a hand and heard clearly a voice saying "I want to be myself". That's what I've always wanted to do: To be able to say "no" when I felt like it, to not to perform, strive or pretend, not even to laugh if the joke didn't make me laugh. To be able to say my own opinion, and not trying to please. To do what I wanted to do with my life without feeling guilt or shame of myself. To be free from wrong obligations, to do things with love and not trying to be someone else. Why has it been so difficult to be myself all my life?

- I would see the matter this way: self-awareness is one way to balance, Uranus replied. - If one part of you is in imbalance, ask yourself: "What can I do to feel well?" Then you learn to balance yourself with the help of this technique, for every answer is balancing oneself. This exercise will sensitize and lead to balance, when it will also lead you to self-knowledge, for without self-knowledge, no balance can be born. Balance is a state where man is with himself as he is.