- It feels very difficult to be loving all the time. Mother Teresa must have had her gloomy moments, too, I sighed.

- In your world, love is very often understood as a state which is only smiling and beautiful words, Uranus replied. - People do not realize that love, in its infinity, is also boundaries, for every state contains its opposite. Love is boundless but has boundaries as well. When you realize your boundaries, you also realize what is taking you forward and is serving you. Then you can realize other people's boundaries as well. In this way I can make choices from myself in every moment and I can then say "yes" as well as "no" in every situation. I can realize that underneath everything, I can love love in everyone. Similarly, I can realize that I do not have to accept everything but I can refuse. It is most important to realize what is real in every state and situation. What am I reinforcing by being present and what am I reinforcing in relation to the other person? When I accept things that are against myself, my morals and my own ethics, I harm myself and harm the other as well. If I accept this state and moment, I also accept harming. When I feel that it is directed to me and do not refuse it or set boundaries, I do not show my love either because love is limits as well.

It is very important to realize this and be true to yourself and your inner being, for this way you can grow love. Every time I accept things that are harming me and are against my ethics, I create karma which binds me to the karma of the other individual. How many beautiful words of love and light and how much work with light there is in your world and how much healing with light, prayer and love! How much these and various spiritual things are exposed in your world at the moment! How much talk of love there is in your world and how many deeds are done in the name of love that harm others and harm the individual himself! Man can experience this in his ordinary everyday life. He starts controlling someone and the justification is: "I love you, you mean so much to me". After that he may say: "This is good for you, and that and that. Do like this, you have to do like this!" Man does not realize that he is wielding power using the word "love". Power does not serve love and power is not born of love; instead, love is born of love. In your world people are acting very much using the term "love" but it is not love and it does not serve.

If we think about the previous example, what would a person say if he was really honest? He would say: "It would be good for me if you did like that. It would serve me because I feel that that thing is right that way. It would give me satisfaction". But the person is not paying attention to what the state and the need of the other person is, for he can never know the soul plan of another. When we are wielding power on another person, we are restricting him. We are restricting his life and preventing him from getting those experiences with which he can be awakened to life, change his direction and open up in order to move to freedom.

Let's think about what hate is and how well it can serve: if a person is attacked, he feels anger which gives him strength to protect himself. It is his expression to the other person because it is born of love, and when he draws a line, it takes love forward. When we are drawing a line, it is as if the person is seeing himself in a mirror: "Am I acting like this? Do I really want to act like this?" It is the only chance to wake up, to see oneself, when it is a chance for a change as well. It is love, for we are not binding ourselves to karma at that moment and we are not reinforcing karma. We are not destroying but we are reinforcing love and creating love.

- When I think about the condition of our planet at the moment, my thoughts are quite hopeless. It feels that restlessness, hate and violence are only increasing, I said.

- Very strong phases of transformation are going on on your planet, Uranus replied. - Merely by observing natural disasters and the state of individuals, what is happening on your planet, everyone can become aware of this phase of transformation. This phase is seen as a powerful transformation on your planet in people's mind, in their lives and in their communities, in entire nations, in nature, in everything. How can this state serve and what can it tell man? Every human being knows how in his own life change is always preceded by very strong tumults. Merely by realizing this and observing the state of your planet at the moment, one can realize that the same is happening there. Your society and the soul of your planet is activating in the same way, and you all can influence very strongly at the moment on how your own life will turn. By being aware of those possibilities which this state on your planet is offering to every human being, everyone can utilize this state and the energy it is generating and change his life to the direction he wants. In this way he can change the course of his life to a direction which brings ever increasing freedom, light and love to every moment of his life.

Man's subconscious has a very strong effect on his everyday functions. At the moment, in your world, people are suffering very much from fatigue, melancholy, depression and illnesses which your medicine can not define. This phase on your planet is activating all this. In this way it is only telling everyone that my subconscious is activated and is trying to unravel those blockages inside me that are hindering all change in my life. The blockages in subconscious hinder progress in man's life. When you realize this, you can accept these states which are happening in you and understand that they are love. They are the key that can open the door to the subconscious and to the locks in there. When you accept this state and the keys, the emotional locks can be opened. It is very important to realize this, for then man will not deny his emotions and will not classify and analyze them, instead he will accept all his emotional states as they are. The emotional state can the rise to be lived and to be freed and the inner blockages can disappear.

Your world is a culture of power, and when a child is still small, he accepts this culture from his environment. He adopts the attitudes "good/bad" and as he grows, he learns to deny himself and his feelings as well as comparing himself with the surroundings. The feelings that are born this way will very often cause insecurity in the child, so the child denies himself. He is trying to adapt to the environment and to what is the prevailing comprehension of the word "good" in the environment. He tries to be good to earn love and to be enough. How often does this occur in your world at the moment as ever increasing restlessness, violence and crime? It is exactly the same thing which is manifested as extremes underneath everything: the need to get for oneself that which is everybody's basic right, or the need for love. Everyone finds his own way to get the void filled, depending on the structure of the personality and those conditions in which the individual is growing and living. Someone becomes active, makes trouble and gets what he needs that way. In this way he gets attention and gets noticed. Whereas the other one tries to be good. How many illnesses are there in your world which are related to self-esteem and to the pursuit of perfection and behind which is the same need for love? It can have myriad manifestations.

Your social structure is shaking when the state of people is shaking because the state of the society is based on the state of people. You can realize this and accept your emotions as they are, and the door to the subconscious is opened. Then those prejudiced blockages become undone as emotional expression, when love can rise and what I really am can manifest itself. When the subconscious opens and I accept my feelings and myself as I am, I learn to be aware of my personality structure, and through myself, I learn to realize that all you can see has its own background. Underneath everything and in the background of every human being, there is the same need for love. When I accept and recognize what I am, where I come from, and why I am the way I am, I can love myself and accept myself as a human being. I can accept that at the moment I am like I am and underneath everything, I am born of love. When I am looking at other people, I can see that they are love. Every individual is born of love and every individual is love, being love itself. As much as my self-knowledge and self-acceptance is increasing, I can also see behind other people and see what is real in them. In this way I can act out of love in every state and realize what is love in that state.

- What is love? Love is an energy that is sustaining your world, universe and eternity and it is recreating itself constantly, Uranus began. - In this energy form we call it love, life, anything, lives all wisdom, all information, all truth, all power, and you are a part of this energy. It is the true existence of you all and the core of everything.

If we imagine a massive mountain range and take a tiniest morsel of it, then if we examine the composition of the morsel, we will notice that the tiny morsel has not changed - its composition is exactly same as the composition of the mountain range. If you think about this metaphor, you can understand yourself and what you really are. You are just like this tiny morsel which is taken from this energy, or love, which is sustaining everything. You know that in you, there is, just like this tiny morsel, all life, all information and all power; you are this itself.

Like it reads in your holy book: "God created man in his own image". If you go in front of a mirror, you see yourself just like you are at the moment: your own body, your own thoughts, your own feelings, the entity. The mirror-image is always like the subject, and if you think about what your holy book tells about this, it gives you all enormous responsibility of your lives. Man itself is responsible, for he creates his own life like God creates Himself and is renewing every moment, thus sustaining life in everything and everywhere. You are all creating at every moment in your lives, whether you are aware of it or not. The only difference is that when you realize this, you can create your lives every moment exactly like you want. Then you take responsibility of your lives and are well, happy and fulfilling yourselves. Then you influence through your own existence at every moment, everywhere you are. It is very happy to be near a happy person who creates happiness everywhere. Through his own existence, he makes life easier and helps others, for energy communicates with energy all the time. How are you influencing? Is it the way you want?

- Well, sometimes better, sometimes not so good... there are bad days as well, I stammered.

Uranus didn't pay attention to my replay but continued:

- People talk a lot about war because they are afraid of it and do not want war but peace. They blame decision-makers and do not realize that they are just as responsible for every war with their own thoughts, for every individual influences very extensively. If you could see how you are influencing and how your thoughts are influencing, you would be startled and you would see your own value. On the other hand, every loving and positive thought which promotes well-being, goes out from you and finds corresponding thoughts. These masses of thought move serving, helping, consoling and building peace; you are very powerful influencers each and everyone.

The fundamental thing is how an individual experiences himself and what kind of a relationship he has with himself. Do I accept and love myself? To be able to love myself and accept myself, I have to understand myself because only this way love and acceptance can be born. When I understand myself, therein lives also forgiveness. Then I realize that everything has its reasons, and I can see how an issue or a situation has evolved. In this way I can understand and forgive, for understanding always contains forgiveness. My relationship with myself will only manifest outside of me and will affect all my relationships outwards. Am I using understandable language?

- Yes, but how does one get to that state? Mere forgiving is difficult, I agonized.

- The more people in your world decide to be happy, the more meaningful man's life will become. He is creating his life constantly, thus fulfilling himself and making his life happy. He is feeling better and better and is happier and happier. In this way he is a healing energy in himself wherever he is. He is influencing and healing merely by his existence.

In your world there is a lot of talk about how Christ healed by his own existence and energy field. It is possible for man to do exactly the same, for when he chooses happiness in his life, he is happy, satisfied and fulfilling himself. Then his energy field in itself is very healing; in this state people are in their existence as healing as Christ. In this state the value of people's lives is rising: they get excited about their lives and well-being and start gravitating towards themselves wanting to feel well. In this way your globe can become paradise.

The life of every individual can generate life and love around itself, thus serving with man's energy field and existence alone. Then the whole is multiplying, and the well-being of your planet is increasing. When a person respects himself, he respects his environment. In this way well-being is multiplying, and man himself is feeling better and better. Every individual who turns to start moving towards himself and building meaningfulness and happiness in his life, is building peace on your planet at the same time. This, for its part, enables the increasing of well-being and light in everything and everywhere, when it is only multiplying. Every individual is unique and every individual is in a key position because every individual affects the well-being of your whole planet and mankind.

All in all, I was feeling better when I was leaving for my second sitting with Uranus which was to be held at Sofia's home again. I wasn't much nervous anymore; instead, I was really looking forward to the sitting.

The sitting started the same way as before: Anja fell into trance in ten minutes and Sofia started recording after coughing.

- With love I greet you, with love and truth, and the truth I want to set between us, a familiar greeting was heard. - Please, the word is yours. You can adduce your wishes and needs the way you want.

Sofia signaled to me that I could start now and I said:

- Hey, Uranus! I have been listening to the recording of our previous sitting and I have been doing the exercise you gave me. It has expanded my understanding of life and I think I've become more loving to some extent. But why is it so hard for man to love his neighbor? Aren't the continuous commotions and wars the proof of that?

As usual, Uranus remained silent for a moment and continued:

- I ask you to take a pencil and paper in front of you on the table.

I hadn't prepared for something like that, so Sofia handed me a pencil and paper. What's coming up now? I was wondering.

- Now I'm asking you to write first the sentence "love in me", said Uranus. - Look at these words very intensely. If your thoughts start wandering, return them back to observing these words.

I was looking at the words as intensively as I could. Now and then my thoughts tried to start wandering but I was able to return them back to the words.

- When you are ready, write underneath those words whatever your mind is producing without thinking about what your pencil is writing in any way, said Uranus.

I had never done anything like this at all, so I got a little worried whether I would be able to get anything on the paper. But, to my astonishment, things that I love started streaming on the paper: my love for animals, nature and children, love for my parents, friends, my home, my past and even love for myself. I even felt love for helping, serving and giving joy.

In the end, my love was encompassing the entire life and especially this moment with Uranus. Gratitude, joy, grace and downright sanctity were filling me.

- When you are ready, write a new title "love to me", Uranus continued.

I wrote the new title on the paper and Uranus said:

- Again, concentrate intensively on looking at this title, keeping your mind in watching these words. When you are ready, write down what is streaming in your mind.

This time more confident, I began to look at the words and when I was ready, I only wrote that "love to me" means joy and gratitude for everything I've received from other people.

- Now, write a new title "love from me", said Uranus.

I wrote the title again, and Uranus repeated the same instructions:

- Once again, look at the words intensely and write down whatever is streaming in your mind without thinking about it in any way.

This time the exercise felt easy to do, and I found out that I was writing that "love from me" means gratitude as well as wanting to pass on all the good I've received - joy, happiness, blessing and strength.
                                                                 

- Now I am asking you to do this same exercise again thinking that this was just one layer and now you are going one layer deeper. Do those three titles just like before and let me know when you are ready, Uranus suggested.

I sighed inside since the exercise had already been quite arduous. But I did like Uranus asked and already the first title "love in me" made me flabbergasted; I experienced some sort of an exploding ecstasy which encompassed everything: my entire life, existence, creation and the universe.

Then I wrote "love to me" and it astonished me even more. Under it I only wrote that it is not necessary to receive love.

The last title "love from me" produced only one word: unrestricted.

I told Uranus that I was ready and he continued:

- Read in your mind the first three exercises and summarize them. Do the same with the following three exercises.

I read the first three exercises I had written and noticed that they were much more detailed and analytical than the second exercises. The second exercise was much more all-inclusive without distinctive features.

- Next I want you to read your summary in your mind and form yourself of it an opinion, image or whatever it is going to be. When you are ready, I would like to hear your experience, Uranus said.

I read my summary which was one word only: unrestricted.

- What an astonishing exercise! I splurged. - It started out with concrete and self-evident things for which I feel love: parents, home, friends etc. Gradually it expanded to encompass service and the entire life, finally culminating through gratitude and grace to a climax of embracing the universe. The importance of other people astonished me a lot, especially under the title "love to me". I really felt genuine joy and gratitude for what I've received from them. A natural continuation to it was that "love from me" meant passing on all that joy, strength and blessing. But the most amazing thing was that after that ecstatic experience, I didn't feel the need to receive love! And how, as a human being, one finds it utterly important to be loved by someone! But no, that experience was all I needed - it had everything! 

If one only could remain in a state like that, there would be no alcoholism, over-eating, drug abuse, sex- or gambling addiction, quarrels, violence, wars... And the most beautiful exercise was, of course, the last which showed that the love streaming from me is infinite. So, I can love everything and everyone without limits and limitations! Uranus, I can assure you I've never ever regarded myself as a philanthropist! It is amazing how many qualities there are hidden in us human beings and how well you can dig them out!

Uranus listened quietly and I can almost swear that I saw a little smile on Anja's (Uranus'?) lips.

- I am very happy for your honesty, for it is love in itself that you have granted yourself in this moment, he started. - In you, love has awakened very strongly, and it makes me very happy. You have given from yourself to yourself and thus given love for others as well, love that has lived in you in this moment. Love in itself is streaming around you joining love and in this way multiplying and serving in everything and everywhere, being in use in everything and everywhere. You can only know what love is in you, to you, from you. You can never know what love is in someone else, to someone else, from someone else. You can only find it out by listening to him and learning to know him. Man can only be aware of what love is in me, to me, from me, and in this way learn to find this form of energy with himself. With it, one can find honesty for oneself and acceptance of reality as well as balance and harmony in relation to oneself. And that, for its part, is reflecting everywhere in everything because what is in you, is reflected in the environment.

If you want, you can, even on a daily basis, keep serving yourself through and with the help of this exercise. Do this exercise by writing "love in me", "love to me", and "love from me". Do exactly the same as you did today: write the title, look at it intensely and write down what your mind will produce. Finally, read what you have written and summarize it. Every time, if you do like this, you will go deeper layer by layer. In this way each time will inspire you and activate your mind and it will always generate and create something new on the level of mind and attitude. Then you will go deeper all the time, at the same time expanding on the level of mind, attitudes and thoughts. Do you find it possible?

- Yes, I do, I replied, enthusiastic about how deep this exercise would eventually lead me.

The following day I started doing the love exercise Uranus had given me. I had never before done any emotional exercises so I was doubtful whether I could do it right in the first place. I decided to do it in the night right before falling asleep when one has already calmed down anyhow. I laid down and focused my consciousness on my heart. In my mind I started repeating the sentence: "I love everything in everything" and kept my consciousness in my heart. Then I started stroking my body slowly with my fingertips so that the movement started from my heart. I started from my head and then continued towards my toes. Soon I had reached my toes, and at least the exercise didn't make me feel bad. I relaxed and I think I fell asleep soon after the exercise. The following night I did the exercise willingly with the same result: my body was relaxed and my mind was calm. On the emotional level I didn't feel any changes and I didn't feel myself any more loving. I did know that I wasn't the most tolerant person but was one supposed to tolerate everything then? I certainly didn't want to be some gutless lump trampled underfoot by everybody! Furthermore, I thought we were supposed to make remarks to our nearest about their little faults and this way make them grow into better human beings.

I wanted to meet Uranus again and discuss with him the difficulty of loving. I had agreed to meet Anja after three weeks when my exercise period would end.
                                                       

October had changed to November, and one day I was on a commuter train from downtown Helsinki to my home. It was rush-hour and the train was almost full. At Pasila station, people were swarming into the trains as always, and I was looking indignant at a group of a few noisy young men who were pushing into the carriage where I was sitting. Well, the peace is gone now! I hope they won't sit on my bench, I thought. The youngsters remained sitting on the other side of the corridor, and I was looking at the one who was sitting closest to me. A long-haired trouble-maker, I thought, and then the youngster turned his head. Our eyes met, and warmth and great friendliness was streaming from his eyes at me. I got confused and I was thinking vaguely something along these lines: there sits a fellowman. The encounter was over in a flash, the youngster kept making racket with his buddies, and I stepped out after a few stops. But the incident kept bothering me and I realized something significant had just happened. I had never before thought that someone like him could be my brother! I had always avoided people like him and had thought: How low can you stoop? Get a grip on yourself!

                                           

Had the love exercise which Uranus had given me really begun to work? Somehow I began to realize that underneath it all there is good will and love in us human beings. When I'm cycling on the road, I can usually be confident that no driver will purposefully hit me. Or if an old person falls down or a child is crying in distress on the street, someone will certainly stop and help. I used to demand too much of people for I thought they were capable of perfection right from birth. First when I gave myself permission to see people's imperfection, I could see their divinity as well. Furthermore, I didn't find it disappointing anymore that I wasn't able to share my inner life with everyone or that people didn't always understand me. They simply had been practicing different things than I in their lives. I also found it nice that I didn't have to criticize my surroundings all the time comparing, demanding or judging; instead, it was easier to let people be the way they were. Plus I noticed that behind the so called good behavior, there could hide a cruder feeling than love. Couldn't, at its worst, the true motive of catering treats, listening to people's problems or giving presents be the responsibility of being a good friend? In that case, wasn't I serving my own image of a good friend rather than genuinely wanting to delight people?

Uranus paused for a moment and said:

- Our time together is drawing near. Do you still have something on your heart or can we consider our time together ended?

Now's the time! I was thinking. Anja and Sofia had told me beforehand that Uranus might pose this kind of an extra question. They said I'd get the most out of it by giving Uranus free reign to answer.

- Is there anything you want to say to me? I give you complete freedom to answer, I said.

Uranus remained silent for a moment and continued:

- Your state and your entity is very good at the moment but love in you could be reinforced a little. Would you be willing to receive an exercise that will increase it?

I flared up inside: so there's not enough love in me! However, I was already convinced of the vision and authority of Uranus so I only replied:

- I'm willing to receive the exercise.

Uranus was silent for a moment and said:

- Take a moment once a day whenever it is convenient for you. Begin the exercise by focusing your consciousness on your heart, and start repeating in your mind the sentence: "I love everything in everything". Start stroking your body slowly so that the movement starts from the heart. First move your hands towards the head and then proceed along your body towards your toes just lightly rotating your fingertips clockwise. Surrender to the exercise completely and let your hands move the way they want because the movement will create itself every time. In my opinion, it would be good for you to do this exercise for three weeks. Is this possible for you?

- Yes, it is, I replied.

- What is the state of your emotions, thoughts and your body at the moment? Uranus asked suddenly.

I was startled. Oops, what an extensive question! I wasn't used to feeling out the state of my being, so I had to think a little before I answered.

- My thoughts are a bit confused, my emotions are calm and my body is relaxed, I replied truthfully.

- If you feel the need for our second meeting, it is always possible. With love I say goodbye to you both, and my love I will leave for your motive power in your everyday life. I am leaving, said Uranus, and immediately Anja collapsed. She breathed heavily and panting for a moment, then started to rise from her hunched position and began to move her hands. She blinked her eyes as if trying to focus her gaze; for a moment only the whites of her eyes could be seen horrendously, then she rubbed her eyes and opened them, and Sofia gave her a glass of water. Anja took a few gulps of water and started stretching herself, just like waking up from sleep. Suddenly I realized that the sitting had taken two hours and Anja hadn't moved one single time during that time.

                                                               

- You talk a lot about energies. What are they in your opinion? I asked.

- Energy is a concept which is very hard for man to comprehend and yet man itself is energy, Uranus replied. - He is like a stratum of energy for, inside him, there is a stratum, his self, and in this way each stratum is levelwise a totally different energy. Each energy level and stratum in him has its own frequency. Each stratum is a different energy level, and in this way it has its own space to move and its own frequency. You are like a stratum of energy, and everything around you is energy, absolutely everything. There is a lot of energy the frequency of which is such that you can see it with your eyes. But there is an infinite amount of forms of existence around you which you cannot see with your eyes because your eyes function through the energy stratum that has the lowest frequency. This stratum is only aware of that which has the same frequency that is visible. The other energy strata in you are, however, aware of the same level as is in them in the energies which are flowing around you. In this way you are all the time aware of an infinite amount of things although you are not yet conscious of it; you are constantly aware on many different levels. You are aware of things from many different levels, and they are in you although you are not conscious of it, for you have shut down this ability to be conscious. The ability is shut underneath all the dross you have learned and which you have gathered in you all these years. Here I would include all the learned patterns and all the other learned ways and forms of thinking. The connection from these levels to your data files is not working, because your data files are working through the intellect where all the learned reserves of dross are. They enclose all knowledge, experiencing and feeling from you into the files, this way limiting your world view into a small enclosure.

                                                                                                 

                                                                 

                                                                                       

         In this way you imagine completely wrong things of yourselves. You do not see your own greatness, extensiveness and versatility, and thus cannot realize how unique you are. And you do not realize that, in your own uniqueness, you are parts of a much bigger and extensive whole every moment and second of your lives. This lack of experiencing and knowledge - and you can only get this knowledge by experiencing, when it is true knowledge - makes man uncertain, insecure and fearful. You shut from yourselves the true ability to live when so much that is beautiful in yourselves and your surroundings is left unexperienced. In this way you will not experience so many various forms of existence and friendship; there is not an energy form in your world with which you cannot form a friendship if you truly want it inside.

                                                                             

When you find all the layers of life inside yourselves in their entirety, you also find life around you in its entirety and realize that life is really beautiful. The place where you live is really beautiful and contains many more forms of existence and much more friendship and love than you realize. Because you are not aware, you cannot receive. Through being aware, you are freed to yourselves on different levels; then insecurity goes away, for you know that security is in you. Likewise, security is around you, for then you are aware of your own power which is infinite. Power is infinite because you are all the time a part of a much bigger whole of which you are only a manifestation of this power. You are a channel to this power, and this power is endless if you want it this way yourselves. However, you can shut it completely with your mind and intellect, and, metaphorically speaking, shrivel and wither away.                                       
 

How dreadful, this wasn't Anjas voice! And she looked like a hundred year old man sitting there somehow hunched!
                               

Sofia introduced me to Uranus and told me I could pose my question. I wanted to start with an issue that interested me the most:

- I'd like to ask one thing: How do you come into a medium, and what body parts of hers do you use?"

- There are many ways to function, Uranus began. - One way is to occupy the entire body but it is not my way of working, for it is not what we have agreed. I descend as energy into her energy, when our energies are balanced and we are the same, one energy at that moment. Her mind, that part of her personality, is then aloof. Because I am only using a part of her, I descend to her energy level, and this way, I am in her energy. Her body and also her ether body are fully present, only her mind has stepped aside. Thus, I am not in her and I am not her either. She herself is present in this entity of hers, I am only using a part of her body. I am in her energy in the same way I am in the energy of yours.You are communicating with me on the energy level at the moment and you are in contact with my energy. I do not occupy her body: I do not use it and I do not settle in her, I only use a part of her. I am not using her vocal chords, as you can hear yourself.

Man has a sort of a computer terminal in his brain, and when I am using the system and the energy, I can cause states. Then I am not in her and I am not her but I am, in a way, using a computer terminal. By using the nervous system, I can cause things and some kind of hand movements as well, if I see it necessary. But I am not in her, I do not operate or occupy her, for her vocal chords are not sufficient for the kind of sound wave which I represent. Her vocal chords are significantly smaller because her voice is in a completely different frequency, and they would be damaged if I tried to use them. If an individual has a low voice, it requires a different vocal chords structure than a person who has a high voice. The form of sound with which I would use her vocal chords is impossible. There are many ways and forms to speak, vocal chords are not the only way. It would be a different thing altogether if the person was someone who uses her voice for work and who would have trained her voice. Then it would be possible to produce low voices and voices in various frequencies. But her voice is very different: it has a different frequency and is considerably higher and more delicate by its structure. My meaning is in no way to harm, for it is not in accordance with the principle of helping.

                               

The bus turned to the bus station of Martinlaakso, and I stepped out. Sofia lived near the station, and on the way there I kept glancing around. I saw gray and grimy concrete brutalism everywhere which the faint drizzle only emphasized .Martinlaakso's only gift to the world so far was Formula One driver Mika Häkkinen. A few drunkards were staggering near the station, a grocery store was advertising sausages and diapers in its windows. I never would have thought that a spirit would appear in these kind of surroundings! In my mind's eye, I saw an Indian temple surrounded by amazing, scintillating light, and birds of paradise were singing delightfully. But no - just a lonely crow was scavenging a dustbin tossing mustard- and ketchup-stained wrappings at my feet as I was passing it.

Sofia opened the door, and I was amazed again as I entered. I knew Sofia was a retired nurse but I never thought she would seem so pertinent. Where was the orange robe and the jingling bracelets? The apartment was tidy: no smoking incense, no psychedelic paintings on the wall and no sitar music in the background. Sofia and Anja were still vacuuming, and suddenly I realized that they were not cleaning primarily for me; I heard them talking how everything had to be clean and tidy when Uranus arrives and whether Uranus would like these flowers on the living room table.
Hey, come on, I thought. It's a spirit and it probably won't even see a thing!

At last we were sitting in the living room, and Anja started preparing herself for the sitting. She wasn't wearing a star-embroided robe or a turban on her head either, just jeans and a t-shirt.

Because Anja was completely unconscious during the sitting, and I was a fearful first-timer, Sofia performed as an assistant at the sitting. It was forbidden to touch Anja during the sitting because if you meddled with such a powerful energy, it could even lead to a heart-attack. A candle was burning on the table and a cassette-recorder was ready to record. Sofia told me that it would take around ten minutes for Anja to fall into trance, and we could ask for protection for the sitting in our minds while waiting. She also stressed that after all these years, Uranus felt more real to her than any human being. That's nuts! I thought. Sofia can't even see him!

Anja's head began to droop after a while and her breathing got heavier. The tension kept growing until it felt almost unbearable, even though Anja had been a friend of mine for many years. Suddenly her head lifted up slowly and her jaw started moving from side to side. Her throat was moving as if something had settled there. Anja's hands were resting on her thighs and her right hand fingertips started circling clock-wise forming a small circle. A moment passed and a cough was heard; that was the agreed signal to start the recording:

- With love I greet you, with love and truth, and truth I want to set between us. Please, the word is yours, a snarling and robotic voice began.

                                                                   

- I want to tell you a secret.

With these words Anja, a friend of mine, surprised me at a café on that August day 26 years ago. I remember her tense expression as she leaned towards me and whispered:

- Actually I'm a trance medium and channel a spirit called Uranus.

I didn't fully understand the meaning of her words then and especially not how they would change my life. I had known Anja for seven years and knew that she was a New Age - enthusiast. She claimed to have seen elves and gnomes in her yard and a headless man in her kitchen once. And now this revelation!

- What is a trance medium actually? I asked perplexed, and Anja told me this:

When Anja was young, she hadn't believed in anything supernatural although she had had unexplainable experiences as a child. Whenever she made the mistake of telling about them to adults, they told her she was a strange child. So, Anja learned to repress this side of her. Her sensitivity started to fade away along the years anyway and Anja grew up to be an adult who didn't even believe in God. Not until she was already thirty-five she somehow unwillingly ended up in a medium sitting; because of the indisputable evidence she saw there, she immediately started believing in afterlife at least, if not in God. Around those times she was persuaded to see the most famous  clairvoyant in Finland who immediately saw Anja's exceptional sensitivity and hidden talents. He stressed that if Anja wanted to feel balanced, she had to own and control her abilities and put them into use. So, Anja decided to join a development circle held by The Spiritualist Association Of Finland. In the circle the members did sensitizing exercises, draw pictures from their subconscious, learned telepathy and transmitting healing energy.

One time in the circle Anja started to have a choking sensation in her throat and she felt like fainting. Other members noticed that Anja was pale and looked unwell and they asked if everything was okay. Anja told them that she felt exactly like someone was trying to say something using her throat. Other members of the circle had been waiting for something like this for years and realized immediately that a spirit was trying to get in contact! They suggested that it would be better if she opened her mouth and let the message come out. Anja was petrified but she opened her mouth with great effort when these words came out: light of God.

                                                               

                                                               
From that moment on began Anja's work as a medium. At first, the spirit she channeled introduced himself through automatic writing, when Anja held a pen in her hand and the pen moved on the paper by itself. The spirit didn't have an actual name; he asked the circle members to call him Uranus because he wanted to convey to mankind qualities like truth, freedom and self-discovery which in astrology are linked to planet Uranus. Uranus told that he had lived on Earth among others as a mendicant but would not return on Earth as a human being anymore. He also told how Anja was going to be trained as  a medium, for Anja's body, and especially her speech organs, had to be able to transmit the vast energy of Uranus. To Anja this was the toughest part of the training: she often started trembling as if she was cold turning very pale at the same time. She would have painful spasms and sometimes her tongue would stick out as if she was a lizard. Once Anja noticed to her horror that the chair she was sitting on was standing on two legs only!

After Anja's body had been "tuned", Uranus began to use her speech organs only and told that next, Anja would be trained to fall into trance.

- Oh yes, the trance! I cried out. - Can anybody become a trance medium?

No, Anja replied. Every person has paranormal abilities which reinforce when you develop them, but one is born to be a trance medium. Uranus told that already before her birth, Anja had agreed that she would work as a medium in this life. Every person has in his body an etheric vehicle which is a storehouse for certain kind of vital energies coming from the sun and earth; this energy acts as a bridge of consciousness between the spirit and the body. People who have a lot of this vital energy-
matter have the potential of becoming a trance medium. Trance is a deep sleep- state and it helps bypass the medium's own mind; it enables the intelligence of the spirit to manipulate the energy-matter and work with it. Anja didn't need any special rites or rituals to fall into trance; all she needed to do was to give permission to use herself as a channel. Anja never remembered anything from the trance itself: she kind of fell asleep and sat motionless during the entire sitting. Waking from trance felt like sitting on the bottom of the ocean and starting to rise slowly towards the surface.

After Anja had been trained to be a medium, Uranus started acting as the leader of the development circle. When people noticed how well Uranus was able to help the circle members, also people from outside of the circle started asking her for private sittings.

- Private sittings! I gasped. - Could I too participate in one of those, please?
- I think it can be arranged, Anja smiled. - When would you like to have it?